ugh

I feel worthless today. I didn't go to school. I chickened out of Bible study. I didn't do anything productive...I'm a loser all around. I hate the way I am, I want to change as a person, but when it boils down to it...I never have the gumption to do anything about it.

I have realized that I don't want to be younger...I just want things to be different...and to have been different, but the only thing I can do is change the future...I can't change the past.

And after all...it's easier to change my life than to grow younger...right?